(Ripped from my YT)

I think we can all agree that 2024 was one of the most insane years in terms of... pretty much everything. This entire time I've been sitting here thinking "Wtf is going on?" and I'm sure many of you guys can agree. There's times when I actually wanted to delete all of my accounts and go hide in a cave somewhere because of how stressed I've been over everything, including the mess that's my family life. I won't go into detail about that atm.

This year has probably been the most I've thought about myself (like me being autistic) and how my behavior in the past has changed the way I feel about myself. It's not the worst that my mental health has been, but I've had very low self esteem and several depressive episodes that kept me from doing anything that makes me even remotely happy. Staying in my bedroom 24/7 hasn't helped with it either. I haven't had actual friends for years and I hardly connect with the few I have now.

Being in college also screwed me over. I barely passed the first two semesters and I'm unsure what to do for the 3rd. We thought it'd be a good way for me to socialize with other people and take another step in life, which kinda worked out, but it started to melt down when I kept being shy/ quiet. And then I kinda just started wondering what I'm even going to do when I'm older. I'm already 20, most people my age are already working or driving or starting families, or even having a popularity on here. Idk.

I'm not saying 2025 will be better, but I just hope I can finally get myself to pull my crap together and actually have a life outside of drawing talking animals and making music on an IPhone. Thanks to everyone who has tried to support me and appreciate my work.